So as you probably know from my post last week, I was volunteering at a summer day camp for middle schoolers. For the week, each kid in the camp (there were about 75) was a part of one of the four teams. Each team had 3 to 4 leaders that would spend the week talking to them, teaching them, and spending time with them. And I'm happy to report that it went GREAT!

Today is the first day of Summer Day Camp. It's a four day program that is from 8:30-4:30, so about 7 hours. I am volunteering as a helper for the first time, and I'm super excited! But at the same time, I'm also really nervous.

I apologize everyone. Again this week, my post is late. Last week was my first 40 hour work week ever, and it has taken its toll. It was a really busy week, and it will be again this coming week. I have a lot going on and I'm trying to adjust.

Last Sunday night, I was at youth group. It was a game night; we had a short lesson at the end of the night, but the majority of the time, we were playing games in the gym. Theoretically, I should have enjoyed this, but I found a lot of the time I really was NOT having fun, but I was complaining.

This morning was kind of rough. It wasn't the worst day, but not much was going my way. I had some friends I was going to hang out with that canceled, and other things like that, and my mood just kept sinking lower and lower.

At my age, there is a lot of pressure to have your future figured out. My high school is constantly planning college visits, even back when I was a sophomore (just after I turned 15 years old). And for each of those college visits, I had to fill out forms with details about my intended major. It was  very overwhelming and I felt stressed. The future can be very overwhelming to think about.

It's been a great weekend. My extended family always comes to visit on holidays, and it was Mother's Day weekend, so I got to hang out with them all weekend. It was awesome, and I can't wait till the next holiday! But last night, after I got home and was alone for a few hours, I really did not feel great at all. I started thinking about all the ways that I don't amount to anything, and I felt very unimportant and unnecessary for anything.

Today marks the first Monday of a new month. That means it's time for my fourth Monthly Goals post! Today, I'll be recapping how I did on last month's goal, and talking about my goal for next month.

This past Sunday, I sang on the worship team for church. Not only that, I led one of the songs, the first time I've ever led a worship song. And I'm not gonna lie, I was CRAZY nervous. I'm really insecure about my voice, and though I love singing, singing with a microphone makes me very uncomfortable and doubtful of my abilities. But it was made much easier through the support of those around me.