A few days ago, I was in the basement working on my drumming. I was playing a particularly hard song that I had been working on for a while. And I had finally figured it out! I could play the song. I was so proud of myself and happy! But... was I forgetting something?

This hasn't been the greatest week for me. Almost every day this week I felt upset, sometimes for no good reason. And when I feel upset, it's easy for me to start thinking about all the bad things in life, and all the times I've messed up, and all the reasons people don't like me. The latter has especially hit me hard this week.

So, like I said in one of my earlier posts, every January my church does a series called Awake, where we abstain from something in our lives that is taking up too much time, and use that time for reading the Bible and prayer. And I took it very seriously. I have done it before, but this year I've really been feeling that I am not close enough to God. So I was very diligent with it, and I spent a lot more time in prayer than I had been ever before. And that's when the trouble started.

I was thinking about my week and what I would post about today, and honestly, to me it was pretty obvious. Sometimes I have trouble thinking about what I want to write about, but this wasn't one of those weeks. It's been a problem that's been growing over the past month and needs to be stopped before it gets worse!