This morning was kind of rough. It wasn't the worst day, but not much was going my way. I had some friends I was going to hang out with that canceled, and other things like that, and my mood just kept sinking lower and lower.

At my age, there is a lot of pressure to have your future figured out. My high school is constantly planning college visits, even back when I was a sophomore (just after I turned 15 years old). And for each of those college visits, I had to fill out forms with details about my intended major. It was  very overwhelming and I felt stressed. The future can be very overwhelming to think about.

It's been a great weekend. My extended family always comes to visit on holidays, and it was Mother's Day weekend, so I got to hang out with them all weekend. It was awesome, and I can't wait till the next holiday! But last night, after I got home and was alone for a few hours, I really did not feel great at all. I started thinking about all the ways that I don't amount to anything, and I felt very unimportant and unnecessary for anything.

Today marks the first Monday of a new month. That means it's time for my fourth Monthly Goals post! Today, I'll be recapping how I did on last month's goal, and talking about my goal for next month.