Honestly... It's been a pretty rough week. I've been pretty stressed throughout, and that's never fun. I felt overwhelmed by my situation. Worry kicked in and I just couldn't escape it. It had control of my mind again. I couldn't think about anything else besides my problem. The thoughts consumed me.
That led me to spending more time in prayer this week, asking God to help me and guide me. There are some situations that are just out of my control. There is nothing I can do. So I prayed and asked him to take control of my situation. When I'm talking about prayer, sometimes I say "Well, that's all I can do". But really, what can I do that would mean more?
It's really hard for me to surrender my situations. I get impatient very quickly, which is one of my biggest weaknesses. Waiting is definitely not my strong suit. I have also been praying for him to give me more patience. I need to be waiting on His timing. Too often, I try to take control of a situation myself out of impatience and I can't do it. Only He can. Once I realize that, things are going to go much better for me.
So that's what's been going on this week. I've been asking God to take control. Complete control. He is what I need, and He is the only thing I need. There is nothing I can do on my own. I'm surrendering to Him, completely. He knows my situation, and he knows what is best for me. I can only assume he is testing me in something. So I'm asking Him to show me what he wants me to know. Guide me in my walk. And I can't wait to find out how he is going to help me grow.