If I had to name one thing that I spend way too much time doing, it would be worrying. I am constantly worrying about different things. After all, if I don't think through every possible scenario, how am I going to react to it? I think through possible situations in my head, and possible outcomes, and how I will react. Things I should do but know I never will. Things that will never ever happen, but I worry about them anyway.
I worry about completely nonsense things that will never happen. And I know that it won't happen, but I still can't stop thinking about it. And I hate that about myself, that of all things, I can't even control my own thoughts. It drives me insane.
But I know that if I ask God to help me, he will. He promises to answer those who diligently seek Him. And that's what I have been doing. I am working to spend more and more time with him daily in devotions and prayer. He alone is my hope, my Savior.
Philippians 4:6 says "Don't worry about anything, but pray about everything, thanking God for what he has done and asking Him for what you need. Then, peace that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Jesus Christ." This is the verse I have been trying to apply lately, because not only do I worry constantly, I also don't pray enough. I am getting better, but it is still limited to once or twice a day, and that's not enough. I want Jesus to be my best friend, and I want to spend time with Him and have a better relationship with Him. Worry does not control me, because I have given that control to Jesus.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." --Proverbs 3:5-6